Currently walking on my walking treadmill typing this. Trying to get my brain to do two things at once. Move legs, type fingers, also think.  I wonder, is this good for my brain or chaotic? Do I like this?  Do I keep doing this? Googles, “walking and working at a treadmill desk good for you?”

Just kidding, I didn’t google that. I’m already dialed in. Focused on the putting of thoughts into this document.  If I pick up my phone, we all know I’ll be lost in it for the next 15-60 minutes.    

Wonders, Will this get easier?  

Every other day or so and then my husband pops in my office and asks how many times I’ve used this walking desk setup. Twice I say. (I got it a month ago.) Now…I can say I just did it. Three times now. Anyone else out there trying to do two things at once?

I pinterest and design my living room AND watch Netflix. I cook and check my Facebook. I mom it up and reply to emails. I listen to my husband while I get ready. I have 26 tabs open in my brain at once and it’s draining. I’m shopping for a rug AND booking new clients.  Now I’m literally getting my steps in AND figuring my life out.

I think what I realized a few nights ago while I was making a video about cooking is that I do try to do too many things at once and what happens is it takes WAY too long to do the things or I end up scatterbrained like I’ve been my whole life and I’m realizing I probably don’t have to be like that. I can allow myself to focus on one thing. In the middle of cooking a cake and making frosting I also realized that I’m kind of a mess. I’ve known this. Every day I think, good god, you made it this far?  Like who knew.

And I think the message I need to know is that I can believe in myself a LITTLE bit (let’s be real, a lot) more, because the tiny amount I’ve believed in myself thus far has me in charge of four kids,  I’m an ok wife, I’m an ok cook, I have groceries in the fridge and dreams of making this home homier every day. I have a treadmill under a second desk, and an email list, and a laptop to type on. I find time to workout, I don’t lose my shit every day, and I’m not super stressed this December and have almost all of my Christmas presents shopped for. ALSO…I married a man who knew where those stupid Christmas elves are I signed us up for 7 years ago. I thought it would be FUNNNN and CREATIVE….

If you’re reading this and are thinking the same thing, my advice to you is don’t do it.

You will want to fall into bed most nights. You have young children!! You’re tired, you’ve been working and parenting, and trying to get your protein, and helping everyone but yourself ALL FREAKIN day…and then you fall into bed, and then your husband or wife whispers to you, “did you move the elves?” And you fight over who’s gonna do it. It’s not all gumdrops and jellybeans ok?

Just don’t do it. They’ll NEVER KNOW.

Mostly they hooked us millennials. The elder ones with young children. Nostalgic for a piece of childhood we weren’t privy too. A magical piece of Christmas we could now give our children…And they got us. We have multiple elves you know? TWO! Sugarbelle and Frisk…uhhh, at least I think that’s his name. Shoot.  I’ll think of it at 1 in the morning when I remember I didn’t move the elves.  

And now, they have accessories. Which I’m not doing. Not BUYING into it anymore. Except for the fact that I cannot quit now.   

I digress…

So my goals this December? Put the phone down more. Connect with one thing at a time. Take moments to breathe and sit in stillness. Take moments to write.  And believe in myself more. Why the hell not.

Good God I’ve been walking for 30 minutes so far. That’s all for me.    

Fritz!! It’s Fritz. Our elf’s name is Fritz.

This might be my only blog this month.

Hopefully it’s not, but if it is…I hope you all have a magical, warm, cozy holiday full of hot chocolate, marshmallows, a fireplace, the warm golden glow of  Christmas lights as you turn on your favorite Christmas movie.  I hope it’s full of love, and joy and warm hugs, either from others, or FROM yourself. I hope you stay sane. In the middle of making said hot chocolate, while your kids ask you for one and 17 other things, and all you want is to watch the snow fall magically, and someone in the background is crying and someone else is screaming because it’s their turn on the oculus….I hope most of all, you get moments of whatever you want. A little slice of YOU time. Carve it out and kick the kids out of the house. The cold is good for them.

ALL the joy to you this season!!! 

Merry Christmas + Happy Hanukkah

Here’s what I’m up to this December!

Starlight Dome at Deer Springs:
Heated igloo under the stars at a winery? Sign me up.

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Wax Buffalo Winter Market:
One of my favorite things. When we think we are going to find gifts for everyone else, but just end up finding things for ourselves.

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Zoo Light in Lincoln + Omaha Zoo:
Magical. Lincoln zoo lights are always fun. This year we are venturing to the Omaha Zoo to see what they have going on. 

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MIRACLE at ROBBER’S CAVE CHRISTMAS BAR:
Christmas Spirit on Steroids.

HOMETOWN CHRISTMAS in ASHLAND:
Snowball fights, smore’s in the streets, lighted displays, Santa, mulled wine, crafts for the kids, like it’s the cutest day on Main Street.