My heart has been doing a lot of melting lately. I sat here bawling an hour ago while I watched this slideshow along with different songs trying to find the most perfect song to put the photos to. Many times I watched this. And…I will probably fall asleep watching it too. Right after, I kiss Tatum…and I’ll be real..I’m not opening Rennex’s room, because it’s noisy and he will probably wake up, and want me to lay by him…and I already did that while I put him to bed which took about 35 minutes. So I’m good there. I adore our bedtime most nights. I spend almost an hour tucking them in, and some nights I just don’t want to. Some nights, I ache and I’m so tired, but I do it anyway because I know…I won’t always get to. But I do hope, when I don’t get to tuck them in any longer, they will remember I think about them every night and when they have someone little to tuck in…they will tuck them in and love them just like I did.

Tomorrow is Rennex’s 2nd birthday. So Happy Birthday love. And Tatum, you’ve been a brother for two years so this is for you too. I am so blessed, for some reason, that I get to love you both. Know you, witness you, and keep room for you in my heart. Rennex, you light up our lives with your infectious smile. I can’t help feel joy when you bounce into my arms. That’s why you came, I think. Tatum, you came to keep me sane, even when you try your best to annoy me, you keep me present. You get me. You always have. I love you both with so much heart. To many more.